Okay, long story, but pretty trippy.

So, a few months ago - probably in like, October - I got a text around midnight from someone that said something about "I hate the fact that I never meet people's expectations" or something like that. And when I say "someone", I mean, some totally and completely random person that wasn't in my phone book and that I'd never met before (Found out that they had just mistyped their friend's number and it happened to be my number instead). So I responded with something about "Um, I think you have the wrong number.. But no body's perfect and it's not fair for people to expect things of you that they can't give you themselves.. So don't worry" and we ended up talking for like, an hour and I just tried to help the person out. This complete stranger that seemed to be having a rough night and I ended with telling them that if they ever needed to talk to someone who's completely unbiased, I'm up for it. Then I never heard from them again.

Then tonight, I asked Edson for this girl Julie's number because I needed to give her directions to LQ, and instead of texting me back, she called. And I was like "Uh, hello?" And she was like "Oh my gosh, Kelsey! Do you remember a few months ago how some random girl texted you at night and they were having a rough time and they accidently texted you and you ended up just comforting them?" And I was like "Um, yeah...?" And she was like "That was me! I kept your number in my phone with a note that you were 'the girl that encouraged me that one night' and then you texted me tonight after hanging out with me.. And you're the same girl!!"

So freaking random. And awesome. And such a small world!!

This totally reminds me of that phrase "We all smile in the same language". That it really can affect someone's day if you make a little effort to help someone. And I offered her an ear.. or eye... month ago, and she remembered me. How bizarr. How trippy. And how awesome.

So the lesson from my xanga entry today? Be nice to someone. Affect their life. Give them a smile. Give the a hand. Give them an ear. Give them a hug.

It's a world of laughter, a world of tears. It's a world of hope, and a world of fears. There's so much that we share, that it's time we're aware. It's a small world after all.

I was so appalled today in my Sociology class.
It was.. so... disturbing.

The topic was sexuality, and we went through tons of different things. Homosexuals, tran-sexuals, rape, prostitution, affairs, abortion, teen sex, pre-marital sex. It was actually pretty interesting. And disturbing.

Did you know China let's you rent hotel rooms by the hour? For 12 bucks, you can rent a room for 3 hours. In 1989, 15% of Chinese had sex before marriage, in 2007, it was up to 60-70%. High school girls are making up 80% of the patients at abortion clinics (at one of the clinics, an abortion is $140, but if you decide not to use anesthesia, it's only $55..). The adults don't approve of premarital sex, so they aren't teaching about it to the level that is actively being.. lived.

You know what's sad? That's not what disturbed me.

Our professor asked us "What did your parents teach you about sex?" and "What will you teach your kids?". I wrote down the answers because of how shocked I was.

What did your parents teach you?
-Don't be a fool, wrap your tool
-Love should be a key, but it's okay if it's not. Just be ready to deal with the consequences.

What will you teach your kids?
-I'll leave it to the schools to teach my kids
-Safe sex
-Premarital sex isn't bad
-Extramarital sex isn't cheating

Whoa whoa whoa. Excuse me? Notice how NO WHERE on those lists does it say "Don't have sex" or "abstinence"... The class laughed when the teacher said "What do you think about people saying that you having sex with someone now can be seen as having sex with someone's future spouse, so in essence, it's cheating"..

I was just, flabbergasted. The kids in my group were like "How can you marry someone if you don't know how the sex is going to be? I couldn't do that"... And they looked at me like I was speaking Greek when I said "well, if no one has sex before marriage, then you have nothing to compare it to, so you can't say if it's bad or not"... It was just. So amazing. No one in that class was told not to have sex before marriage. And they thought it was insane to ever suggest it.

Is that seriously what the world has come to? The idea of abstinence is really that far fetched? I'm so... So disappointing in the world.

Holy. Crap.

The human mind is amazing. Other than it's ability to memorize countless formulas and situations. And other than it's ability to love and to hate. And other than it's ability to know what's right and wrong. I love how easy it is, to remember things that hit close to the heart.

I was talking earlier to a friend for over an hour. She's going through the same situation that I went through Christmas of my Junior year. As she was explaining everything she was feeling, and every step of the situation... It broke my heart. Not just for the people currently involved and for what was lost... But also for what happened that December. I remembered perfectly how I found out. I remember having to be the bearer of horrible, yet potentially exciting news. I remember crying for how everything was going to change. For the experiences we'd never be able to have. We'd never be allowed to sit on the curb talking until 2 AM again. Hawaii was going to be screwed. And responsibilities were going to sky rocket. It was an adventure we'd never planned on. I remembered how badly I wanted someone to understand my involvement and heartbreak in everything that was happening. Gosh. That was such a... I've never cried as much and as passionately about something. I was so glad I could be there for her tonight. Because I get it. I understand it. I remember feeling like I was being so selfish for being mad. Mad about what we were gonna lose as friends, not for what they were going to be going through. I remember feeling like I'd been the one screwed over. I remember wishing I didn't have to be the one they both turned to. Man. I was so angry, yet unwilling to let them know, because at the same time, I did want to be there for them. I wanted to get to the end of it and be able to have helped.

Then there was the sadness. How sad I was for the decision that was made. How I felt it was my fault. If only I'd been more convincing, or even convincing at all. Instead of me concentrating on myself and what I would gain, I should have been concentrating on what I knew what was right. And that brought on being angry at myself when I realized how selfish it all was, for all of us. I still get angry when I let myself think about it. And I couldn't explain to anyone why I was so mad about it. When I spent night after night after night on the phone, listening to them, trying to just be there for them 100%.. I should have said something.

Oh and then the real anger. That didn't even set in until that June. When the truth came out. I'm glad she doesn't have to deal with this. With the lies. Lying for attention. About something this big... Drastic... Life changing... How could lying about this have even crossed someone's mind? Why would you? I.. It's unfathomable to me.

I'm glad I had the chance to be there for her tonight. I wish I'd had someone who understood.. It's funny that now... Two years later... I finally have someone who gets it. Who understands every single thing I felt. And that I still feel... When I think about it. It felt so good to be able to help someone through something I went through. I guess this is why it all happened years ago. So that I could help her. All the tears and anger that I went through was worth it so that I could be a shoulder to lean on.

The human mind is amazing.

So yesterday I learned something new.
Redheads are going to be extinct by 2060.
Since red hair is the recessive gene and in order to produce more redheads both parents have to have the trait.
And (I kid you not) because so many people are migrating here from Asia and dark haired countries, the chances of two red hair gene carrying people to have a baby is very slim..
And apparently the color green tames redheads and their temper.
And our hair doesn't turn gray. Our hair turns sandy, then white. Kinda cool.
Redhaired slaves were sold for a higher price in Rome.
We are more susceptable to pain.
Redheads are only 2% of the population in the US.
Red hair is a genetic mutation
It takes more anesthetic to sedate us.
Redheads have the least amount of hair on their heads.

Crazy.

I pulled out my "She Said Yes" book. Cassie Bernall was such an awesome chick. I've read that book so many times. Some of the pages are LITERALLY, PHYSICALLY falling out. Like, you know how most books if you open them and put them on a table, one hand has to hold it down so it doesn't flop closed? Ya, my book lies flat on the table. Lol. I have like, notes written in there and highlighted passages. She was just crazy. She wasn't perfect by any means, I mean, the beginning of her life, actually up until about 2 years before she was killed... She was just with the wrong crowd. And I love that I can actually picture the important part of the book - when she accepts Christ - cuz it happened at Estes. I was like "Hey! I've been there!" And I could totally picture it. Two of my favorite quotes from the book, that don't even have to do with Cassie, they were from letters that her and her friend from church were writing to each other.. "If you don't start living for other people, you end up being consumed with yourself. Once you start giving, though, your emotional needs will eventually take care of themselves." and then other one, which I agree with and wish some people would understand, cuz it describes my friendships with certain people that not everyone agrees with.... "Teens just want to be real, and they want to be with people who are real - people who are themselves and don't care what others think". It's a good book. She Said Yes, by Misty Bernall.